23rd feb- rainy day with light showers at many areas, strong wind but no lightning

just finished harry potter and the deathly hallows.. chionged through 6 hours to complete it on sunday so i wun get hit by the spoiler attacks on monday.. lol.. but i did not bastard anyone ok.. i am one angel :) anways i have something to clear up.. i am NOT with vera anne poi yu ting.. its like i realised a lot of people think we are and vera agrees we should clear up loh :) its like we are just friends.. u need to feel something and not just pursue beautiful things... its easy for guys to be nice to girls! its in their nature! sending girl's home, baking cake, all the sweet sweet stuff.. and apparently we do not have that connection.. though we are a cute couple :) but we arent.. so guys dun misunderstand ok? u guys still have chance with the fun loving vera! haha.. anways after the video i am recognised as the nerd.. and people will point to me and say (right in my face) :" hahahaha! see he is the nerd! hahahaha!" hiya.. nvm loh for PHOBOS! (vera and shern whey owes me a buffet) haha.. anyways i packed my stuff and found a wooden beaded necklace and stood there stoning.. dunno why.. my life is kind of in a mess right now just like harry potter but without the voldemort.. i guess i feel the same way as him.. serious..

phobos music video ~~~

this is the phobos music video! special dedications to shern whey, vera, shu hui, kai wei, loretta :) we worked hard for it k so pls dun look at it and say " where got nice " haha.. this video is also to add amusement to your boring lives so sit back and enjoy!

that music thing

went to "that music thing" its the name of the concert -_- so dun ask me what thing cause i feel very cold when ppl ask that.. people will be like what thing? that music thing! lame shit.. anyways i was suppose to go to the tpjc dance festival one because my friend told me too but because phobos music video which me shern whey had spend infinite time on it was showing, i really wanted to see how well we had done..it started out with freaky z(some rapper) who gave a seriously cool performance and the band peep show.. wah everyone got high and all jumped and sing like some maniac.. haha i think the teachers were kind of shocked by it was one good hell of a night... then came the screening of music videos.. wah i was seriously worried cause the other houses were really good! especially triton! wah lau guo hao was super charming i was so sure that half the hall's girls fell of their chairs larh.. haha they were like mesmerised by his eyes, his style basically his AURA... haha.. but i am proud to announce that we won! me and shern whey and vera jumped and hugged each other.. guess we were too happy lol.. haha really won by a small margin i think its becos they were touched by our video, how poor thing and emo i was, and how seh was shern whey hor? hahahah then after that went to eat with the house com members although i wasn't house com one but nevertheless they called me along.. and they are really nice ppl.. going to post the video here tmr so be sure to check back!

And dun laugh pls.. although some people joked and said beneath that bulkiness and joker and all maybe. maybe this was the real me.. lol...

shagggg!

wah slept two hours only.. went to school like a zombie.. during lessons i was opening my eyes big big so as to force myself to pay attention but then i started to dozeoff while holding a pen and scribbled gibberish on the paper.. zzz... its like the ultimate shag sia.. anyways the reason why i slept two hours was because shern whey stayed at my house and we had to finish that mv.. its nice but people said they felt sympathetic towards me when they saw it cause i was the victim.... i guess thats a good comment haha..

oh and something happened yesterday.. when me and sw was at tenah merah waiting for vera, she came running to us face looking pale and all.. then we asked her wad happened and she said got this guy was sort of stalking her.. cause she met him thrice coincidentally on the train and now he recognises her and he keeps saying wad want to make friends and stuff.. wierdo.. so me and sw wanted to go up and confront the guy and ask him to back off.. we went up and we found the guy who fitted the description.. wearing beige shirt and holding a NTUC plastic bag.. we wanted to walk up to him when he walked into the train going towards the airport.. shit..
then me and sw decided not to board cause its kind of stupid and i joked that maybe he will take back b4 our train came cause he is a freak.. and guess wad? he really did!.. he came out of the mrt looked around for girls, found one not bad one wearing a red dress and walked up to her and started to talk.. the girl was like wtf so she sort of siamed him.. nvm.. then he walked into the train and started scouting for girls with that perverted look of his.. he found a target and purposely walked two carriages and we followed him cause we wanted to see what he was up to.. he found one girl who had a few plasters on her face (i guess she fell or something) but not bad looking.. he started with a lame pick up line of " do u have tissue paper?" wiped his face and started to talk to her.. i guess the girl was being friendly and polite so she sort of replied (the details seemed so clear because we were right beside him)
then i kind of got worried for her so i told sw that when we were about to alight we warn her.. cause although he looks toot but nevertheless he was big sized although he has a belly.. so if he were to stalk that girl i doubt she can fight back.. when we were reaching paya lebar, i walked up to them and said :" hey miss, u better becareful of this guy.. he is a stalker and he tried to stalk my friend take care k?" and i gave him a fierce glare... then he was like" u sure u got the right guy, dun anyhow say hor" then sw started the pai kia way saying " wad wrong guy dun try to act, u are the one.." then he said some stuff that angered me and sw and we asked him to stepp outside now and he mumbled something like " dun play hooligan with me i know SINGGPORE LAW arh" ZZZ bloody loser...

the point is i wasn't trying to act beng or be brave or anything..its because i was genuinely worried for the girl and wanted to warn her.. such weirdos need to be taught a lesson.. if he stepped outside sw and i would have just tekaned him like shit.. sorry vera thats the best we could do... but anyways pls becareful of such ppl... we wun let them bully u :)

music video

wah... shern whey u are an asshole.. firstly u tell me that i am in the music video playing a part.. then i found out i am one of the main lead.. not only that, u din tell me i am a NERD and u are a SEH kia inside.. then u assured me that i will be a normal person inside but throughout i was that geek.. ZZZ... haha u dam mean to me if not u brother i wouldn't do it for u lorh..

wah lau this is the day where i felt i lost all of my integrity.. hiyah.. i pull my pants high high put on some loose specs, with a ruler a highlighter a blue pen in my front pocket and wearing a super small bag and carrying a pile of books.. OMG.. i look like some retard.. and i had to be bullied by u.. hiya.. but i guess u guys are in a tight situation and no one would ever help u guys cause the role is just so disgusting so i shall be the victim.. anyways u guys owe me a buffet at york hotel.. i want to go the penang fair..

And something dam random happened... miss swee came up to me and tell me to go share my trimming down experience with the other taf members.. she says she wants me to give a talk on how i lost 15 kg.. which is kind of gay cause she wants me to write some speech.. and i decided to quote from zhi wei "i have become more NEW ABERN ( note its abern not urban, not some spelling error) MALE and TANNED and BIG ARMS becos.." hahaha..

not emo pls

hidehidehide.. i realise alot of ppl do that. its the easiest way out not cause u choose to but its the simplest solution... personally i dun really use practice it cause at the end of it u will regret especially.. nvm.. oh and i realised hatred can help one forget somebody which is kind of cool cause i have been living in regret like some emotional wreakage wishing everything will come back to me when i open my eyes. but now after the com i realise my eyes are clearer on what i want in my life and what i hold on to dearly...

Just the way i feel tonight
Some day, when I’m awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight.

You’re lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Lovely ... never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won’t you please arrange it?
’cause I love you ... just the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Lovely ... never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won’t you please arrange it?
’cause I love you ... just the way you look tonight.

Mm, tonight.


i was listening to unbreakable by westlife when i re-read this and i felt alot.. but i not emo loh haha

friday night

went out with meryl and ah wei, missed them alot.. but i think i missed the other prom gang people more cause i long time never see them le.. we spent alot of time walking until we dam tired due to our indecisiveness.. we talked from cine to taka then lido then wisma then taka.. retarded right? haha.. anyways the thing is meryl wore a red dress which attracted alot of people's attention again.. but this time i think its not the dress its the people.. i guess its the colour lar but i guess they were thinking who is this hot babe (dun say i backstab u) haha.. and ah wei as usual niaoed me about my NEW ABERN MALE shop and all.. everytime he see a guy with singlet, its me... everytime a guy who is botak and fat, its me.. i would just give my favourite big smile..hahaha.. watched harry potter with them.. nice show but they changed alot of parts... and i think the main thing of the show is.. LUNA LOVEGOOD.. dam chio omg.. serious her tone also nice with those dreamy eyes.. hahah.. I LIKE... and i have to admit that daniel redcliff is not so handsome leh.. he used to be cute and all but now like abit weird.. malfoy still handsome and the weasley twins dam cute.. haha..

after that took night rider 7 home whichs tops at my house the bus stop.. feel so bad about not sending meryl home cause so late she has to walk home sia.. hiyah but my parents and all u know.. nvm otherday i will send u home... so sorry!!

...

words cant describe how i feel now but all i can say i have regrets. i want it so badly everytime i close my eyes i see the last stroke to the finishing line. i cant help but tear after the competition. i told myself during the race iwas ready i was strong, every stroke i took i pulled hard, i din forget the teachings of miss lim.. but i am sorry miss lim. though i want to contribute to the team badly i failed.. we got 5th and lsot the 4th postion.. congrats on our teams medalist though they fought hard.. all i can say is we will get back wad we lost this year in year 2008..

pre com feeling

i am nervous yes i am.. i need some strength from u but i doubt u will know.. but anyways i cant stop myself from being excited too.. its like a small part of me looks forward to it.. i am not scared.. i dun need that.. wad i need is more strength more power more agression...

tired abel

oh i slept 20 hours today... omg its a total tko sia.. i reached home around 3 plus roll about the floor for one hour and then bathed and slept at 4? then i woke up the next morning without brushing my teeth.. haha feel so dirty... lol but nevertheless it was one good rest :)

stressed bodoh

hiyah i really stressed.. its like i tell myself thousand and one comforting words.. But then i still need yours... sian... hiya... i know i am ready.. i am worried for my partner... is he ready? hmmm...

i show u wads anger

ARGGGH... I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!! although i know ppl would say i bitch about u but i dun fucking care man.. its like my tolerance level is dam high usually but u have stepped way past this limit bro.. leg pain fever eye pain kena groundede studies hand pain ask u push a little back pain... #@@$#% DO u feel guility or not. we doubles boat u every training pang seh me then i have to do other craft... i dam du lan.. now i doubt we can even go past the heats. last few trainings le u also dun want to come for fuck larh.. everyday tuition.. mid years finish tuition.. not i want to say seriously why u even join this cca for.. ur will to win is only so little? tmd.. only two minutes plus on water u also dun want to train hard for.. want to eat protein and train body go join health and fitness larh.. really leh i cannot stand it le its like everytime u dun come i continue to smile but inside of me dunno what to say i try to be sympathetic towards u but now i fucking cant... u train for two years and at the last moment u give up.. even i this kind studies no good one also cant help but despise u sia.. ur outlook of ur life is seriously pathetic.. at least even if we dun win we worked hard for it we give one good set that is accountable to ourselves i dun blame u because we did our best but now it doesn't seem like it.. and one thing control ur temper pls.. u think the one who gets pissed and the angriest win? childish...



and yes i am bitching about u cause if anybody who were in my shoes would have blown up earlier then me.. but i buay tahan le.. pls lets muster all ur protein strength and get past this competition..

oh no!

i am curently suffering from serious withdrawal symptoms and it seems to be getting worse each day.. i need to get cured soon.. otherwise i will just die on my bed.. hiyah..

having a bad bad bad headache now and a stiff neck... kind of a bad combination cause i cant shift my head.. i look like a retarded robot.. how?

yes!!!

and i have to hereby annnounce for the next two days i do not have school... next week i do not have school from tuesday to thurday.. SWEE LARH

emo

oh yar.. i forgot to mention that day got this girl asked me whether i was my sis's boyfriend.. i just smiled and said no and they even asked my sis why i so big sized.. hey i am not size XL or anything its called muscular :) zzz... oh my god am i becomeing that old... hiya... but its ok.. means i dress maturely :) haha!

anways loretta send me the pics if u read this i wanna put it in a folder labelled "ex-ecp emo kids" haha its was kind of gay cause yesterday i met up with ecp emo kids and we din even emo at all.. just sa on the breakwater to take pictures then we went to play pool at classics.. me and lionel lost to kenneth and daniel and we were supposed to pay for their table but in the end we only paid a little.. thanks guys we owe u one...

anyways had training today and it was tiring.. did intervals instead of the usual sets. but then my morale still low due to constant disappearance of my partner whether its for tution or not genuine or not, i still feel sian cause it ain't fair to me.. some people might think its ok cause he was still having exams but i dun see why the rest can come and u cant.. its a matter of how much u want it... i am not bitching about him but i think i have the right to at least express my feellings at the very least... i dunno what to say... i guess i am just sad for our boat ... i actually saw potential and hope in it.. but seeing how hard others train and how hard my boat trains.. i actually felt a little shameful... ha.. as wad miss lim said the most important thing is to go there and give my best and not regretting.. And i am not trying to be the worst person on earth by saying all this because i realised i have better things in life to do and make me a happier person :)

anways i am a sick boy now and have to constantly drink this special chinese cough syrup mix in hot water to get rid of my thousand year old cough.. damn.. this thing taste wierd..

one crazy night

this particular saturday 1st of July was one hell, crazy night.. i did loads of crazy stuff but firstly if i did offend u or something i am sorry to those i disturbed cause i was drunk.. secondly i did loads of crazy stuff that i would never have done but i liked it.. and i want to do it again.. haha! sorry meryl for calling to disturb u i was laughing like some maniac but u are my best friend ho ho ho.. loads of details but i lazy to write cause i just wrote the previous post like 5 mins ago? my mood doesnt change that fast. lame.

and thanks for tonight yolande loretta hui yun and lionel. love u guys. it has been my honour hanging out with u guys. hahah

long lost friend

went out with meryl and zhi wei.. but after that left me and her cause zhi wei needed to go some bbq.. anyways read her blog cause i find i feel super duper lazy to type wad we did but basically she is still the most unglam girl i have met.. fingers licking good arh meryl? yeh and the main thing is she wore a corset with no jacket or anything that attracted the attention of poeple.. i dunno it was bad or good but definitely more bad than good :) anyways i dun really give a shit about them cause they cant do anything but staring is rude my friends, watch where ur eyes are going.. the main thing is its been a long while since i have seen her but as she said we did not needed to be reserved as both of us were equally talkative and crazy hahah... anyways nice to meet u but CAN u stop using ABERN MALE. thanks (maybe i free i will rewrite or maybe cut and paste urs? haha)